Monday, August 23, 2010

On goodbyes and hellos.



Can you hear it?
This voice of mine was sucked emptily into darkness
If the world has meaning to it,
Then these kinds of feelings aren't futile

I was crushed by my longing and had given up
Without even knowing the color of the endless sky

I began to run, because my feelings, even now,
Are definitely beating against my heart

The me of today will continue towards our destination
We'll amass our own tomorrows

The answer, yes, is always right here

I don't have the time to lament the seasons that have passed
So that I won't ever waver again
With countless, tiny little
Regrets carried in my arms

I've come this far, having chased only after your back
It's something only I, who sought you, can do

Those words you gave me that day, even now,
Definitely reach my heart

I've realized my reason for having been born
Today more than I did yesterday

The answer, yes, is always right here

It was as if everything was completely natural
Our precious days haven't ended yet, and then, again

I began to run, because my feelings, even now,
Are definitely beating against my heart

The me of today will continue towards our destination
We'll amass our own tomorrows

The answer, yes, is always right here

Good gravy I love that song.

Hey there folks, I suppose this is goodbye! Well, you and all the chinese spambots that have accrued over a lengthy period of doing absolutely nothing. I got my results today, and on the leaving cert, I have to say this: I did not study the hardest, but I studied hard. I did not do the best, but I did good. I did not get my number 1, but I got my number 2. I got a result that I can honestly say I am proud of. I'm not going to pretend that I coulnd't have done better here or there, but I am proud of what I have achieved. And this morning, what I had achived earned me social work in UCD, my number 2, which I can honestly say is one of the best things that I could get.

So I'm heading off to college then! Big things lie ahead, and I'm looking forward to what will probably be semi-grown-up-ness. But, I feel like this blog has ran its course, the life of a secondary school student from.... 4th to 6th year? Wow, three years? Maybe it hasn't been that. I want to keep it around though, maybe to look back and see where I came from every now and again. Thanks for reading, all of you, your comments and readership was at its heart, what kept this blog running.

On me, I guess I should say this has been one of the best and worst years of my life, I worked hard, and experienced some truly wonderful things over this year, but in honesty, I have grown distant from God, and that is a distance that has grown exponentially in the latter days of this year. So many good things happened, but like solomon, I've found that with God at an arm's length, they lack meaning and purpose. Like I said, the latter days of this year have been pretty messed up. I've done some truly terrible things, and I have lost a fair measure of friends here and there, and as cheesy as it might sound, I also lost major parts of myself along the way. But these things happen in life, and I truly, truly am looking forward for rebirth, renewal, and redemption as I seek God and try harder to live my life for him in this new college year, making new friends and building new bridges even among those that have been burnt. So here is to claiming and reclaiming wisdom, building and strengthening friendships old and new, and the redemption, rebirth, and relationship that God gives us, just because he loves us.

And also reminiscence, just because it starts with a "re".

So goodbye!

Play me off, Johnny!

"Hey, I wonder if this still counts as a quote even if it's just me saying it!" - Lorcan Murphy.

3 comments:

Cosmo said...

Hey, congratulations on your place at UCD. I hope it all goes well for you. It will be a blast.

I hear what you're saying about the God thing. You're gonna find that life at uni may make that journey even harder at times. For what it's worth I know of someone who saw his college days as an opportunity to step away from church and God - only to have a profound encounter that shapped the rest of his life.

There's grace enough for everyone.


If you get a chance, stop by my blog sometime and let me know how you're getting on. (It might motivate me to start blogging again!)

God bless,
Marcus

Syneloi said...

Dzięcię tu było i swój umysł odżywiło, dziękuje i życzy powodzenia!

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