Saturday, June 27, 2009

Blogging into adulthood.

So, in 33 minutes, I will be 18. I will be a legal adult, no longer a minor. Wow. I don't know when this happened. Well, I guess it's just a number really, maturity doesn't equal age and visa versa. All the same, it's unnerving. Does that make me a man? I don't think so. I've been thinking a lot about what makes a man. I think at this stage I could call myself a man.

What makes a man a man? Well, for starters, you kinda need a Y chromosome. Sorry ladies. Check.
You need a certain age. You can't really be a man at 12. I don't think so, anyway.

Other than that, it's kinda conjecture for me. See, I know what makes a Good man, but just a regular man? I think you just need the above. At any rate, I don't really want to be a man so much as I want to be a good man. The relief is, I won't ever really be a perfectly good man, 'cause no-one is good, really. You couldn't say someone is good and never have them prove you wrong. We all make mistakes, (Especially me), so I don't think you could call someone "Good" when they have bad in them, any more than you could call a lump of Iron mixed with Tin "Iron". You could call it "An iron/tin composite", maybe even "mostly iron", but you couldn't call it just iron.

I think Jesus was a Good man. So who I want to be more like is Jesus. I think a man is just a boy who has reached a certain age and changed enough psyically to have gotten through the majority of his changing, unstable years. I think a man has certain responsibilities to be expected of him. So I think a man is someone who is capable of dealing with certain responsibilities and someone who has fair, expectable responsibilities. I think there are young boys in Africa who act with much more manliness than I do. Expected to take care of your family after the death of your parents? That's a man's job. Unfortunately, these are still 8 year old boys, who have to act like men, when they're not. A fair expectation for boys would be to ask them not to make too much of a mess of their room, and to play nice, and to share with their siblings. They're given unfair responsibilities. 

Well, that kinda changed the point. 

I think Jesus is God, and God is Love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 

Love never fails

Let's paraphrase that. 

A Good man is patient, a good man is kind. He does not envy, he does not boast, he is not proud. He is not rude, is not self-seeking, is not easily angered, he keeps no record of wrongs. A good man does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. A good man always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. 

A Good man never fails.

Now, let me say, I can do none of those things. Not all the time. I lose my cool, sometimes act harsh, envy people like crazy sometimes, boast more than makes sense, quite proud, but getting better! I make rude jokes, seek for myself a lot, but, once again, getting better, get angry at certain things that get said, and totally hold things against people. I don't know if I delight in evil, but I certainly laugh when people land on their faces on Youtube. I also laughed at a joke about Michael Jackson's death. I dunno if that could really be called "Evil" though. I laugh Evilly from time to time. I do rejoice in the truth though! Sometimes though I think the truth is a pain. I don't always trust, I sometimes lose hope, and I sometimes give up. 

But God loves me anyway! I think what I'll try to do is try my best to be more like Love, more like Jesus, more like God. Maybe that's a christian man's job. Actually, I'd say that's also a christian woman's job. But, these things are shown differently. Different, but similar. Very confusing. I probably don't know what I'm talking about. But that's ok.

Well, I'm 18 now. It feels a lot like being 17, but more responsibility. And more strength to meet that responsability. I don't know how to spell responsability. How Irrisponsible of me! :P

Think I'm gonna go pray now.

"When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me."
1 Corinthians 13:11 - NIV

PS: Don't worry, I believe I can still be relatively silly and funny. That's not childish, that's just fun :P


Cosmo said...

Hey, happy birthday!

That was a cool way to cross a threshold. Thanks for allowing others to walk along your honest path with you.

Phiasmir said...

Haha, more than happy to :P
Kinda bizzare how technology allows one to share that kinda moment with people.

Also, I shaved my face with a Razor for the first time in my life today. It was good! :D

Lawlii said...

happy manhood!